by Christine on June 14th, 2010
This morning I stepped on the scale to find that I am at 146.6 pounds. That means that I’ve gained three pounds in the last week! Shoot!
My gut reaction is to respond to this increase by taking dramatic action: cut calories significantly and exercise more. However, my brain tells me that this is precisely the disordered eating pattern that possibly helped to make me fat in the first place. My brain tells me to act more reasonably: eat small meals more often throughout the day, cut out the sugar that has crept into my diet, and just keep plugging along. However, the disordered eating part of me is screaming to “take a fasting day” and increase my exercise and take some water pills/laxatives to “eliminate any waste” that might be inside me. I honestly feel like I’m a cartoon character, with a devil on one shoulder and an angel on the other. I am having a hard time figuring out which one has the best advice for this scenario.
If I’m being honest with myself, I can say that I’ve been lapsing a bit in my eating. What am I doing wrong?
- I’m eating too much sugar. (Candy bars/chocolate, caffeinated drinks, even diet coke, which is pure evilness.)
- I’m eating too many calories. My body is happy with 800-900 calories, but I think I’ve been venturing into the 1200 calories/day range. While this is a healthy range for most people, I’ve learned that my body doesn’t like that many calories. It prefers 800 calories of healthy, nutrient-rich foods.
- I haven’t been eating as much soup as I normally do. You’d think this would be a good thing — there’s an awful lot of sodium in soup — but if I’m looking at what I’ve done differently in the last 1-2 weeks, this would be a big one.
Part of this weight-loss journey has been to learn about my body, what it needs, what it prefers, and how to adapt to it. The other part of this weight-loss journey has been to try to let my disordered eating patterns go. This three pound gain is extremely frustrating, but I think it’s a good exercise, like a test to find out whether I really know what I’m doing or not.
This weekend I had a “Congratulations You Got Divorced” party to attend. We made voodoo dolls of the men (and women) that have smote us in the past. We dressed them up and stuffed them full of metaphorically meaningful items (pigs, snakes, blue balls, black hearts, dirty rats, etc.) Then we doused them in voodoo juice and burned them! Our friend who is recently divorced cut up wedding photos and let them burn, too! It was a fun night with some really fun and delightful women that I don’t normally spend time with.
I had eaten prior to going over to the party. (Half a pint of egg drop soup, and four bites of shrimp-fried-rice (approx. 200 calories) but the party had plenty of food, and unhealthy food too! Spinach dip with bread; onion dip for chips; hummus with extra garlic and pita bread; artichoke dip. There were some veggies and veggie dip too; brownies; and lots of alcohol! I did moderately well with my food choices: I had two servings of artichoke dip on pita bread and a few carrots, two brownies, and two beers (over the course of seven hours). I could have done without the brownies. Still, I think I ate with reserve. I really could have plowed into those dips! Overall I think it was a success, but the whole food situation probably didn’t help with the scale being up today.
More party pics:
I think I need to work on pre-planning my food for the day a little better. I will work on that this week. Today I put together a Bento Box for my lunch: small salad with FF dressing; 1 hard boiled egg; a few grapes; and two small chocolates. 200 calories for the whole thing. Tomorrow I will have soup to appease the Weight Loss Gods.
by Christine on May 24th, 2010[/caption]
Good morning everyone! I hope everyone had a nice weekend! Mine was more low-key than usual, but that’s sometimes a really nice thing. Friday I met a friend for drinks (and had one too many). Saturday I slept in, went for a 8 mile bike ride, did some gardening, then went out for drinks with girlfriends (and had one too many once again). Sunday I slept in, went to the gym, did yard work, and went out with friends for dinner (no drinking at all).
If you notice, there seems to be a general trend going on regarding drinking: I don’t know what my tolerance level is anymore, and I don’t cut off soon enough. My previous job involved wining and dining clients, and I had a very high tolerance. Not so much anymore! Even more surprising: alcohol doesn’t even taste as good to me anymore. The high sugar content does something to me, and it turns my stomach. No, I think I’ll pass on alcohol for a while. It doesn’t hold the same appeal as it once did.
This weekend I was playing with some “small bites” or tapas recipes I found online. I made these two meals:
Photo Top: whole wheat pita, with a little melted mozarella cheese on it. Topped with a homemade salsa (tomato, onion, mushroom, fresh cilantro, lime, salt). It came out to about 50 calories per little wedge (I had three wedges). Delicious!
Photo Bottom: whole wheat pita, thin slices of melted swiss cheese, a few thin slices of ham, with some dijon mustard and hummus as a spread. It was delicious! It was less than 140 calories per wedge (I had two), and the leftovers save well. To reheat, just stick in the toaster oven again!
The whole cooking this is inspiring me. I’ve always enjoyed cooking; I’m the type that will grab a recipe, get the general gist of it, then do my own variation. It works out well for me about 80% of the time. However, in the last two years or so I haven’t been doing as much cooking. You see, my husband is the worst eater on the planet. I can count all the foods he eats on 2 hands (pizza, hamburger, chicken, steak, potato products, spaghetti but heavy on meat and no veggies allowed in, milk, cookies, ice cream). He doesn’t eat any vegetables or fruit or sauces or spices ever, for any reason. Bless his heart, he’s never demanding that I cook for him; he realizes that I work full time just like him and have a busy life. However, it makes me feel guilty to spend an hour cooking a delicious, healthy meal for myself, and I watch him throw an Elios Pizza into the toaster oven for himself. Ugh, what a terrible wife I am, I think to myself. So…little by little I just stopped making any effort to cook for myself, and instead I make bland meat-filled meals. This whole idea of cooking small meals (with flavor! And spices!) is exciting to me.
Today I tried packing my fake Bento box #2. Photos to come, but it’s not very impressive. I hope my real Bento supplies come in the mail this week!
I’ll take photos of my vegetable garden this week as well. I love my veggie garden! Everyone should have one! It’s so cheap and easy to do, so long as you remember to water the veggies every day. I grow way more than I could ever eat on my own, so I give my extra veggies away to neighbors and friends. This year I’m growing asparagus, scallions (both already ready-to-eat), four types of lettuce, tomato, cucumber, carrot, celery, bell peppers, brussel sprouts, corn, and sunflowers. I may have thrown a zucchini plant in there too; I don’t remember. That’s a lot of veggies in a little box! I squeeze them all in pretty close together but they handle the abuse well. I also have an herb box where I grow dill, cilantro, rosemary, oregano, and mint.
Exercise plan for this week:
Tuesday: Gym + Yoga
Wednesday: None (dinner plans with an out-of-town friend)
Friday: Not sure yet
Saturday: Picnic with friends; probably will involve a competitive volleyball game!
Sunday: No plans yet. Perhaps a hike up a mountain!
Monday: Swimming all day at a local water park! (Assuming the weather cooperates)
That’s a fun, action-packed week! That’s my type of exercise, too — lots of variety, lots of different types of activity to keep my body guessing, etc. Oh, and one of my neighbors, Sue…she’s a physical education teacher and she’s SO fit!…she belongs to my gym, and she said that when school lets out she will go with me to the gym and will help me get comfortable in the freeweights section! I’ve got a “lifting buddy!” I’m so excited!
by Christine on May 21st, 2010
Yesterday I was SO EXCITED about the Bento Box idea! While at work I ordered a super-cute Japanese-style Bento Box and a few accessories. They should arrive sometime next week. After I met with a friend after work, I ran over to the bookstore. Unfortunately Borders did not have any cookbooks on making Bento Boxes (insert sad face) but I did find a book on small-portion cooking, called “Small Bites.” I am going to look through this book and pull out some interesting recipes to try.
Then I ran to the grocery store and stocked up on all kinds of goodies! I bought more fruits and veggies then I’m ever going to consume. In the tupperware aisle, I found this mock-bento thing called “EZ-Freeze Stay-Fit.” The lid has a freezer pack to keep your food fresh, and there’s a compartment for holding your silverware/chopsticks in the lid. The bottom has three segments. As soon as I got home I whipped up my first attempt. I think I did pretty well! The whole thing clocks in at under 300 calories and has fruits, veggies, carbs, and protein. I doubt I’ll eat the whole thing, but it’s nutritionally-sound; much better than my normal soup-from-a-can shtick.
Romaine Lettuce: 2 calories
Cabbage: 4 calories
3 Cheery Tomatoes Halved: 15 calories
1/4 Cucumber: 6 calories
Croutons: 33 calories
Feta Cheese: 25 calories
Salad Dressing: 70 calories
Rice with Steak: 30 calories
Hardboiled Egg: 72 calories
Grapes: 30 calories
TOTAL: 285 calories
by Christine on May 20th, 2010
I am in love. Officially. Yesterday I stumbled across this crazy, awesome, amazing cool blog, the World According to Eggface (Blog Here) and discovered something totally fantastic. I think it’s going to rock my world!!
These are adorable little Japanese-styled lunchboxes. The interesting part is that they are sectioned off in tiny little partitions. I eat very little portion sizes, and a typical lunch for me involves a can of soup. Not very inspiring, nor is it very nutritious. These Bento Boxes are going to allow me to still eat very small amounts of food, but I’ll be able to actually get diverse types of food into my diet. Hooray!
I admit, I’m not much of a cook or a chef. However, some of these Bento Boxes are so freaking cute! The chefs that prepare them are whimsical and artistic. I can’t wait to try these out!
I just bought $60 worth of Bento supplies: a partitioned carrying case, a sandwich cutter/press, vegetable cutters, and (gasp) a hardboiled egg mold. I don’t typically eat hardboiled eggs, but I look forward to giving it a try. I’m going to hit the bookstore and the grocery store after work today to stock up on Bento Box supplies.
If you’re looking for some really amazing-looking recipes…things that are healthy, great for those who had weight-loss surgery (let’s face it, we have special dietary needs), and that are small-portion-size-friendly, then please check out blog “The World According to Egg Face.” It’s really inspiring!
Check out these bento boxes!
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