by Christine on December 23rd, 2011
filed under Christine's Life Updates
It’s been a really weird week, and a really weird Christmas.
First of all, I found out this morning that my 2nd cousin was killed in a car crash yesterday. She was only 21, and had just gotten married about 5-or-so weeks ago. My parents cancelled our usual Christmas in Illinois so they could spend some time with our Texas family. It sounds like instead of celebrating the holidays, they will be attending memorial services instead. It’s a terrible tragedy, and my heart goes out to my wonderful, beautiful family in Texas. Here’s a picture of my 2nd cousin and her daddy just a few short weeks ago, on the big wedding day. Isn’t she absolutely beautiful???
On Monday I had my first appointment with the counselor. It was just an overview session, a get-to-know-ya kind of thing. I think he was a little surprised that I have, as he said, “So many things going on in your life right now.” But I feel pretty good about the guy, and he thinks he can help me. He wants to see me two times a week for a while, so I have my 2nd appointment this afternoon.
Afterwards I talked to my mom. They had opened their Christmas presents at my cousin’s house, so she was calling to say thank you. It was actually a nice conversation. I’m glad that they are with the family down south and spending some quality time with that side of the family.
Monday I kind of wiped out my Facebook and deleted all my old posts, deleted some people that I either never speak to or don’t really want to know what’s going on in my life, etc. I’m not sure why I got a little spazzy about Facebook. When I’m depressed, I want to isolate myself and cut off all contact from the world. I think that’s what I was doing.
Tuesday we had pub trivia. We won at the end of trivia, but we didn’t collect our prize (a gift certificate to use next week) because I don’t want to go back again, so we wouldn’t use it. Without going into too many details, going to that pub trivia makes me feel bad about myself, so we’re going to find a new bar and new trivia to check out in 2012.
Wednesday my co-worker and I met a client for lunch, which turned into a 7 hour lunch, and we were all drunk as skunks by the time we left. My co-worker shouldn’t have driven. I think we all shared a little bit too much about what’s going on in our lives and in our heads, and now we’re all acting stupid towards each other. Ugh.
Yesterday I had my appointment with my GP to discuss my depression. God, I love my doctor. I didn’t have to try to defend myself, justify how I’m feeling, try to convince her that I’m not making shit up, etc. I just said, “Hey, I’m feeling depressed and my current meds aren’t working. I need some help.” So I’m going to take some blood tests today to check my thryoid levels and vitamin levels and whatnot, and then she switched my meds to another type of anti-depressant, which I’ll pick up and start trying this weekend. I sure hope the new meds help!
Yesterday evening my hubby had his company holiday Christmas party. They gave the guys those remote controlled helicopters, so there were like 8 of those things flying around the restaurant, flying into our hair and landing in the food, etc. It was a very strange little gathering. I was extremely tired, I ate way too much food, and I felt socially incredibly awkward and self-conscious.
But the important part is that I’ve survived the week. One day at a time.
Today I’m at 129.0, a little on the high end of my maintenance range. But I’m no doubt bloated from PMS, too much food yesterday, etc.
by Christine on December 19th, 2011
Yesterday marked my 1 year anniversary of making my goal weight. I was banded in February of 2009 and I reached my goal weight in December 2010. It took me just about 2 years to lose 100 pounds. I started at 225 pounds and I reached my goal weight of 124 pounds last year. In the last year I have fluctuated in weight a little bit, less than 10 pounds worth. I have for the most part maintained my weight loss for the last 12 months. I hope I can maintain my weight loss for the next 70 years. Yikes that sure seems like a long time.
My 1 year anniversary passed by with no recognition or celebrating. While I am proud of my accomplishments, they seem bittersweet at the moment, especially because I’m learning that I’ve lost more than mere weight over the past 3 years.
Today I have my first appointment with a counselor. I’m anxious about the appointment and cannot concentrate on my work today. But, I’m also excited about the appointment, and I am feeling optimistic that maybe this guy can help me sort through my multitude if issues swimming through my head and heart at the moment. I’ve been to counselors in the past and have had zero luck with them, so I’m not holding my breath. Still, I’m hopeful. I’ll tell you what, something has got to give with me at right now.
I was reading online about what to expect with your first counseling session, and most articles say that you should come to the appointment with a solid understanding of what your problems are and what goals you hope to achieve. Well, while I can pinpoint some larger problems and long-term goals, I haven’t got the slightest idea what my problem is right now. But I can say that I would sure love to pull myself out of this depression and be able to be happy in general, focused at work, and able to develop healthy and rewarding relationships with people in my life. Lofty goals, I know.
Wish me luck.
In the meantime, here’s a few tips for trying to avoid packing on the pounds over the next two weeks:
1. DO remember to wear tight fitting clothes.
That’s right, even to the office party. Choose a fitted dress or pencil skirt with a snug sweater. Wearing body conscious clothes will serve as a reminder that you can’t overeat. Shift dresses can be paired with a wide belt notched one size smaller than usual for a more tapered look. Guys, you don’t get a free pass here.
2. DO delay gratification and wait at least 20 minutes before eating at an event.
Make at least one full lap around a party before starting in on the appetizers. Think about it: It’s rude not to greet people when you walk in, and how are you going to do that with a mouth full of food or hands compromised with a beverage and a canapés?
3. DO keep your hands to yourself at all times.
Keeping a drink in one hand and a cocktail napkin in the other will make it difficult for you to keep reaching for those mini quiches we all know and love.
4. DO ruin your appetite.
We won’t tell your mother. It’s far better to go to a party on a half-empty stomach than an empty one. By eating a pre-party snack you have the opportunity to make a sober food decision based on your preferences and not based solely on what’s offered at the party. Consider it nutrition pre-gaming. (Added note from me: Make sure your pre-party snack is healthy! Eat a big handful of carrots!)
5. DO start now.
If you had even a one-fourth pound weight loss for every time you said “Oh, I’ll start tomorrow,” you’d be a skeleton. Waiting for a New Year’s resolution is just delaying your goal by that many more days. It may not be feasible to lose weight during December, but there’s certainly no reason why you need to gain weight. There will never be a perfect time to eat right — you have jump right in and start with your next meal!
(stolen online from here.)
by Christine on December 13th, 2011
I’ve had something bother me all week.
We do trivia at a local bar every week. And one of the trivia questions last week was something to the effect of, “A US Size 10 in women’s clothing equates to how big of a waist, in inches?”
I thought, man, that’s an easy question! I had JUST measured my waist the night before! I have a measuring tape hanging on my bathroom door, which I used once a week during my journey to skinny. It had been a while since I measured, so I busted that baby out.
- I have a 28 inch waist.
- I’m 5’2. So I’m a petite.
- I wear a size 4 pant comfortably. (Sometimes a size 2, depending on the brand.)
(sidenote: That’s approx. 2 inches more than reaching my “low/goal weight” a year ago, when I measured in at 26.5 inches. Same weight, bigger waist = clear indication that I’m not exercising.)
So keeping that in mind, and the fact that women’s clothing sizes go up every 2 sizes, I figured that a Size 10 would be something like a 34 or 36 inch waist, right? I guessed 36 inches.
Got the answer wrong.
Guess how big of a waist is a US Size 10? 28 inches!!
But wait! That’s what size MY waist is, and I wear a Size 4!!
According to the charts, a Size 4 should have about a 24 inch waist. 24 inches? Seriously? Who is that teeny? (According to some reports, Megan Fox and Kelly Ripa…)
So either this information is totally F-ed up, or my body is totally out of wack. I don’t know. How does that logic work on you ladies?
Here’s some stats to back up the trivia leader’s answer.
That’s F-ed up. No wonder women go insane when they shop for clothes. The shit doesn’t make a single bit of sense!
Just for some other fun celebrity info….Marilyn Monroe had a 22 inch waist, Audrey Hepburn had a 20 inch waist, Princess Di had a 27 inch waist at the highest, Kate Winslet has a 29 inch waist… This is a fun website to check out….
by Christine on December 12th, 2011
This weekend I went with a friend on a wine tour in the Mid-Hudson River valley area. We were sort-of, kind-of following the Shawangunk Wine Trail, but with a few additions thrown in. A few wineries are not on the official Shawngunk Wine Trail, but are worth visiting nonetheless, such as Robibero Winery & Demorest Hill Vineyards. This weekend was the Wreath Fineries wine tour — which means for a big whopping lump sum you get free tastings at all the Shawangunk Wine Trail wineries, plus a little food at each place. Plus they give you a little wreath at the start of the tour, and each winery has a little ornament to put on your wreath. And oh yeah, you get to keep a souvenir glass too. Well, we had intended on signing up for the tour this Saturday, but tickets were sold out. No big deal–we would still do the tour, except pass on the wreath and pay for tastings at each winery, like normal.
Well, we were at our first winery (Adair Winery) when we chatted with a very nice couple. Turns out his brother-in-law and wife couldn’t make the tour, so they gave us their wine tour ticket. Furthermore, it was a 2-day ticket, which was even more expensive! THANK YOU VITO! It was a really unexpected, lovely gift! (They wouldn’t take any money for the tickets, either.) What nice people you run into on the wine trail!
My favorite winery is Demorest Hill, which is not on the official route. The cutest little old Italian man runs the place, and he makes something ridiculous like 60 or 70 types of wines, spirits, vinegars, etc. Delicious! I love that place.
We stayed at the Thayer Hotel at West Point Military Academy, which is a wonderful hotel that looks a little bit like a midevil castle. Very pretty location.
I did a great job packing snacks for the trail. In addition to the little snacks they had at each place (I do believe Applewood Winery would win the award for best snack…a spicy cheesecake that was really fantastic!) I had packed some cheese, pepperoni and crackers, some carrots and grapes, bottles of water, packages of almonds, etc. I didn’t overdo it during the trail or afterwards at dinner….I was holding steady at my maintenance range of 126.0 this morning.
Showing off my new hands-free wine cozy! hahahaha! So tacky but so much fun! (And holy crap when did I get SKINNY, people?? That’s a padded ski jacket I’m wearing there….and I don’t look like that kid from A Christmas Carol. Freaky!!!)
Chickens!! Omg, one winery had chickens. I hopped out of the car and tried to chase one down to pet him, but he wouldn’t let me get close. What a chicken chicken! Bawk bawk! See, you might find exercise at the oddest times when you’re on a wine trail. You better be prepared!
by Christine on December 9th, 2011
I’ve gotten a couple of interesting comments on my blog lately. Most of them have been very constructive and sweet! Curiously, a lot of the comments are from my older posts, such as Compassion and Understanding in an Overweight World and Climbing Mt. Fuji.
I love all my comments, even when they aren’t always full of praise and glowy words. Sometimes the hard words make you stop to think and re-evaluate. There’s good in them, too.
So really, from the bottom of my heart…thank you for stopping by, reading this little blog, and for giving me feedback. I really do appreciate it. Very much so!
(And remember to link me up to your own blogs so I can visit you, too!)
As for me, there’s nothing much going on with me that’s really worthy of writing. It’s more of the same…same food, same problems, same weight, same daily grind, blahblahblah. Sometimes I feel like a broken record on here.
This weekend I’m going on a little wine tour! I’m looking forward to the outing. I’ll be sure to post pictures on Monday.
The holidays are starting to kick up here at work, which means taking clients out to dinner to say “thank you” for the work over the course of the year. I have three work outings scheduled so far, and probably more to come. These are tricky, not only to eat within your calorie budget (especially when you’re dining on work money) but will also prove to be interesting with the gastric band. I’m quite used to excusing myself from the table to go remove “blockage,” but it still feels…rude.
How do you guys deal with “blockage” problems when you’re in a formal restaurant setting? Have any tricks or suggestions you can share?
I hope you all have a good weekend