Weight Gain and Voodoo Dolls

by Christine on June 14th, 2010

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Weight Gain

This morning I stepped on the scale to find that I am at 146.6 pounds. That means that I’ve gained three pounds in the last week!  Shoot!

My gut reaction is to respond to this increase by taking dramatic action: cut calories significantly and exercise more.  However, my brain tells me that this is precisely the disordered eating pattern that possibly helped to make me fat in the first place.  My brain tells me to act more reasonably: eat small meals more often throughout the day, cut out the sugar that has crept into my diet, and just keep plugging along. However, the disordered eating part of me is screaming to “take a fasting day” and increase my exercise and take some water pills/laxatives to “eliminate any waste” that might be inside me. I honestly feel like I’m a cartoon character, with a devil on one shoulder and an angel on the other.  I am having a hard time figuring out which one has the best advice for this scenario.

If I’m being honest with myself, I can say that I’ve been lapsing a bit in my eating. What am I doing wrong?

  • I’m eating too much sugar. (Candy bars/chocolate, caffeinated drinks, even diet coke, which is pure evilness.)
  • I’m eating too many calories. My body is happy with 800-900 calories, but I think I’ve been venturing into the 1200 calories/day range. While this is a healthy range for most people, I’ve learned that my body doesn’t like that many calories. It prefers 800 calories of healthy, nutrient-rich foods.
  • I haven’t been eating as much soup as I normally do. You’d think this would be a good thing — there’s an awful lot of sodium in soup — but if I’m looking at what I’ve done differently in the last 1-2 weeks, this would be a big one.

Part of this weight-loss journey has been to learn about my body, what it needs, what it prefers, and how to adapt to it. The other part of this weight-loss journey has been to try to let my disordered eating patterns go. This three pound gain is extremely frustrating, but I think it’s a good exercise, like a test to find out whether I really know what I’m doing or not.

Karen's Voodoo PartyWeekend Party

This weekend I had a “Congratulations You Got Divorced” party to attend. We made voodoo dolls of the men (and women) that have smote us in the past. We dressed them up and stuffed them full of metaphorically meaningful items (pigs, snakes, blue balls, black hearts, dirty rats, etc.) Then we doused them in voodoo juice and burned them! Our friend who is recently divorced cut up wedding photos and let them burn, too! It was a fun night with some really fun and delightful women that I don’t normally spend time with.

I had eaten prior to going over to the party. (Half a pint of egg drop soup, and four bites of shrimp-fried-rice (approx. 200 calories) but the party had plenty of food, and unhealthy food too! Spinach dip with bread; onion dip for chips; hummus with extra garlic and pita bread; artichoke dip. There were some veggies and veggie dip too; brownies; and lots of alcohol! I did moderately well with my food choices: I had two servings of artichoke dip on pita bread and a few carrots, two brownies, and two beers (over the course of seven hours). I could have done without the brownies. Still, I think I ate with reserve. I really could have plowed into those dips! Overall I think it was a success, but the whole food situation probably didn’t help with the scale being up today.

More party pics:

Pre-Planning

I think I need to work on pre-planning my food for the day a little better. I will work on that this week. Today I put together a Bento Box for my lunch: small salad with FF dressing; 1 hard boiled egg; a few grapes; and two small chocolates. 200 calories for the whole thing. Tomorrow I will have soup to appease the Weight Loss Gods.

Bento Box Attempt #2

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  • http://jackfit.blogspot.com/ Jack Sh*t, Gettin’ Fit

    I’m finding that now that I’m at goal weight, my margin for error is razor thin. If I’m really, really good, I can eek out a tiny loss or a stay-the-same, if I’m kinda good, I may manage a stay-the-same or a slight gain. If I have more than one bad day, all bets are off…

    For me, this journey is much more difficult without a big goal out on the horizon. But the good news is that we don’t have to do this forever… just for the rest of our lives. 😉

    • http://www.phoenixrevolution.net Christine

      Howdy Jack! Thanks for stopping by and visiting my lil bloggie! I think you’re right that as you approach your goal weight, the margin for error gets smaller. I can see that to be true with me, too! I feel fortunate to have gotten the gastric band because it sure will make “the rest of our lives” so much easier for me than for other people, especially as I get older. Talk about built-in security to protect against future weight gain! I really need to focus on losing this last 20 pounds though. Do you/did you find that food was more important than exercise, or vice versus? I read somewhere that exercise isn’t really important to weight loss, but it’s key to the success in weight maintenance. I’m not there yet and thought I’d get your take on it!

  • http://jackfit.blogspot.com/ Jack Sh*t, Gettin’ Fit

    I’m finding that now that I’m at goal weight, my margin for error is razor thin. If I’m really, really good, I can eek out a tiny loss or a stay-the-same, if I’m kinda good, I may manage a stay-the-same or a slight gain. If I have more than one bad day, all bets are off…

    For me, this journey is much more difficult without a big goal out on the horizon. But the good news is that we don’t have to do this forever… just for the rest of our lives. 😉

    • http://www.phoenixrevolution.net Christine

      Howdy Jack! Thanks for stopping by and visiting my lil bloggie! I think you’re right that as you approach your goal weight, the margin for error gets smaller. I can see that to be true with me, too! I feel fortunate to have gotten the gastric band because it sure will make “the rest of our lives” so much easier for me than for other people, especially as I get older. Talk about built-in security to protect against future weight gain! I really need to focus on losing this last 20 pounds though. Do you/did you find that food was more important than exercise, or vice versus? I read somewhere that exercise isn’t really important to weight loss, but it’s key to the success in weight maintenance. I’m not there yet and thought I’d get your take on it!

  • http://imjustanotherfatgirl.blogspot.com I’m Just Another Fat Girl

    Hi Phoenix!

    I totally hear you about the angel and demon on the shoulders. I’m beginning my first truly healthful weightloss journey ever after a long road of ups and downs with not so healthy choices (to say the least).

    I’d like to encourage you to stay the course with your healthy decisions. Radical changes (i.e fasting) bring on rapid results (quick loss of 3 lbs) that can be undone more quickly than they were done and with harsh consequences. I know you know it, but I need to say it just the same.

    On three throroughly positive notes:
    -You totally got a comment from Jack Sh*t who is my personal hero
    -You have an awesome bento box
    -You have superhero-esque will power to abstain from the dipping delicacies. You are a stronger woman than I am!

    -jafg

    • http://www.phoenixrevolution.net Christine

      Are you kidding jafg? I’m completely stoked that YOU are here! As for Jack, I think he’s got a massive crush on me. He just can’t stay away! LMAO! (just kidding!!) Ha ha…in all seriousness though, thanks for stopping by and for encouraging me to stick with the healthy course. I did yesterday, and i hope I can stay strong in staying the healthy path today too. Every day can be a challenge sometimes, you know? Oh, and thanks for the bento box compliment! I have a lot of work to do to become a true Bento Box Artist though!

  • http://imjustanotherfatgirl.blogspot.com I’m Just Another Fat Girl

    Hi Phoenix!

    I totally hear you about the angel and demon on the shoulders. I’m beginning my first truly healthful weightloss journey ever after a long road of ups and downs with not so healthy choices (to say the least).

    I’d like to encourage you to stay the course with your healthy decisions. Radical changes (i.e fasting) bring on rapid results (quick loss of 3 lbs) that can be undone more quickly than they were done and with harsh consequences. I know you know it, but I need to say it just the same.

    On three throroughly positive notes:
    -You totally got a comment from Jack Sh*t who is my personal hero
    -You have an awesome bento box
    -You have superhero-esque will power to abstain from the dipping delicacies. You are a stronger woman than I am!

    -jafg

    • http://www.phoenixrevolution.net Christine

      Are you kidding jafg? I’m completely stoked that YOU are here! As for Jack, I think he’s got a massive crush on me. He just can’t stay away! LMAO! (just kidding!!) Ha ha…in all seriousness though, thanks for stopping by and for encouraging me to stick with the healthy course. I did yesterday, and i hope I can stay strong in staying the healthy path today too. Every day can be a challenge sometimes, you know? Oh, and thanks for the bento box compliment! I have a lot of work to do to become a true Bento Box Artist though!

  • http://JuiceForFasting.com Juice for fasting

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