Trying on my wedding dress

by Christine on December 22nd, 2010

filed under Christine's Life Updates

One of the things I have been looking forward to is trying on my wedding dress to see how it feels on a much-thinner body.

Buying a wedding dress was an absolutely horrible experience for me. I went to every single wedding dress shop in the entire Upstate New York area and never found a dress that looked okay on me. Part of the problem is that most of the try-on dresses are only in a Size 6, and I was a Size 18 at the time, which means that the dresses wouldn’t even get past my boobs or hips. It was impossible to see if the dress would work for me or not.¬† David’s Bridal had dresses on the rack in a Size 18, but they all looked hideous on me. I ended up buying an okay dress at a consignment shop (for $150), but every time¬† I took self-pictures of me in the dress, all I saw was how fat I was. I bought a total of three wedding dresses (all very cheap, don’t worry), and hated every single one of them. I reached the point where I was more than willing to spend THOUSANDS of dollars on a dress, just so long as I loved it and loved how I felt in it. I started going to really expensive wedding dress stores, but since I couldn’t even get the dresses over my head, it was impossible to see if the dress was nice on my body or not.

It didn’t help that I did all my wedding dress shopping alone. Every single one of those 10,000 stores I went to, I went to alone. I didn’t have anyone there with me to hold my hand, be a voice of reason, to tell me that “well, that wedding dress might work for you.” I was all alone, and I think that compounded the sadness of the wedding dress shopping experience.

In short, wedding dress shopping was an utterly miserable experience. I cried more in those few months than I have in my whole life. I put off the wedding for as long as I could. I thought about canceling our wedding plans. I talked to my soon-to-be husband about the idea of eloping in Vegas so we could wear Jeans and T-Shirts, anything to prevent the horrible wedding dress thing from happening.

We got married on a cruise ship, so it was a very low-key ceremony. I eventually found a dress that I thought looked tolerably okay on me. It was a prom dress from JC Penny ($60). When I see photos of our wedding, all I can remember is that horrible wedding dress experience, and how terribly unhappy I was with my body.

There are two things I couldn’t wait to do when I lost all this weight. The first thing was to try on that Size 18 JC Penny dress again and see how it looks on me now!

The second thing is…for our 10th wedding anniversary, I want to renew our vows, but I want to buy a real wedding dress to wear, and I want to feel pretty and sexy in it!

We got married less than 3 years ago, just a few months before my gastric banding surgery. 102 pounds later…what a difference it has made! Here are some pictures from yesterday!

(That picture above is me trying to bunch the dress up so it seems to fit a little better!)

Man, that felt REALLY good. I think I finally won the war with the wedding dress. Sure, a bit belated, but I finally did it. Take that, evil wedding dress!

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  • island bandit

    i know it’s not what you want to hear, but as your friend i’m obliged to say it anyway – *I* think you looked stunning on your wedding day!!!
    But I can understand how you feel and fully support the renewal of vows in your dream dress…. but you do realise that as a size-nothing you’re not going to fit in the sample sizes when it’s time either because they’ll all be way too BIG!

  • Jack Sh*t

    This post makes me want to go try on the tux I got married in; unfortunately, I got it from a guy that rents them out of the back of his van and he’s apparently no longer in business. Oh well…

  • Jane

    You were still a very pretty bride, even if you were overweigt–and the dress is very pretty too. But to see you now and the changes you have made is inspiring and amazing! I am so happy for you that you have taken these steps while you are young and have so many years ahead of you. I speak from experience when I say those words. I’m trying not to waste any more time!


  • Jane

    You were still a very pretty bride–and the dress is very pretty too. But to see you now and the changes you have made is inspiring and amazing! I am so happy for you that you have taken these steps while you are young and have so many years ahead of you. I speak from experience when I say those words. I’m trying not to waste any more time!

    • Jane

      Sorry for the double entry. I’m having trouble losing my internet connection at the most inconvenient times–often when I comment or post, so I either end up with no comment or I redo unnecessarily (trying to remember what I said in the first place). I guess I need to get my internet provider out to fix it.

  • Ajames79

    Same issue with me. I did not want to dress shop at all. I didn’t want to be embarrassed around other people. I ended up buying the first dress I found. Although I do like the dress I did not like the whole wedding dress experience. My goal is to redo my wedding photos when I reach my goal weight and wither get my dress altered or get a new one. You look wonderful btw

  • Rachelthinwithin1

    This post is painful for me because I can totally relate. When I got married I was 170 but still, I did not fit into the sample sizes. And I went alone because I was embarrassed at even my sisters or close friends seeing my “body”. I don’t know if you felt this but when I went into the higher end shops, like Kleinfelds I felt that they were a little dismissive because I probably wouldn’t be buying coutre due to my size.

    Any ways you look beautiful and have come so far. I think you should definitely renew your vows. You are lucky to be married to someone who sees your beauty at all times.

  • L_halliday

    I think you look very very pretty in your wedding photos, and very happy too, but i entirely relate to the wedding dress drama.

    I sold mine when i got divorced, else i’d love to play this game too!

    How much fun do you look like you are having trying on the dress with that tiny lil body of yours now? Your face just shows so much joy! I am so happy for you!!!


  • Sarah G

    I think the dress was flattering back then and bunched up still looks good on you.

    I wanted to renew our vows on our 10th anniversary too, we’re coming up on our 14th (Dec 25th) and still haven’t done it. LOL

  • sanseed So beauty. i like it. best wishes for them. and

    there are some more beautiful wedding dress for us to choose which can make

    us be the most happiliess women all over the world. God bless us. Wish you

    enjoy your life.

  • ron

    You were just as beautiful back then as you are now!!!

  • Patrick

    What a cool NSC Christine, lots of reasons to smile here :-)

    I gave you center stage on my 12/24 blog post

  • Digitizing services

    looking so pretty in her dress.Hey christine thanks for sharing this beautiful blog with us. You are rocking baby.